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So I got amazing news tonight!!! My best friend is having her twin boys tomorrow and I am so excited!  She has gone through so much in the past two years that these babies are the most amazing blessing EVER!  I am so excited for her!!!  I just got a phone call from her and I’m about ready to cry I’m so excited and happy!!!

On a quick “other” note…I ate about 1400-1500 calories today and only 2 unhealthy snacks (neither were AS bad as I thought they were).
Have a great night…sorry so skattered but YAY!

weight loss photos

Basically, the first is from June 2008 up until April 2010…and i’ve lost another 21lbs…so will be adding MORE photos when I actually have some taken :)   First photo was taken at 240lbs, second was taken at 210 (i think), third is at 205ish, and now, I’m 185…those photos will take a little bit because i don’t really really like mirror photos but I think I’m gunna have to!

Blackberry Jam

So…I am feeling better and picked another 2.5 liters of berries…blackberries.  I don’t like blackberries and I am also allergic to them (good reason not to like them, eh?).  So, I am making jam, picking more in the early afternoon and then getting to work on Wednesday (I think).   I am actually really good at making jam so I’m kinda excited for this.  Some will be Christmas presents…others will wind up being given away…and still others, will wind up sitting in my freezer (freezer jam…super easy) at home.

I can safely say not liking a sugary food is a GREAT way to not eat the stuff I make…even better when you swell up over the sugary sweet stuff.

So, I lost another pound…putting me at 188 (BMI: 29.4).  My goal is 185lbs by the time I go back to school (September 6th) but if I happen to go lower, that would completely rock!  I think when people start to stress about numbers on a scale, they really set themselves up for failure.  I would eventually like to be 165lbs.  For me, it’s a maintainable weight and I’d like to be realistic.

I’m never going to be 120lbs.  I’m not built like that and I’m okay with it.  I might not like it all the time (especially when clothes shopping at the “cool” stores) but you know what, I’ve got more to me than a body.  I am a smart cookie (hello, 3.6gpa after 5 years out of school), I have great friends who are more like family (Justin, Sanjeevan, Dana and Jessica), and I have an amazing family (although I’ll admit, my sister scares me).

It’s not about my weight…it’s about living life to the extreme and enjoying myself.  I wasn’t doing that at 240lbs.  I wasn’t doing it at 150lbs when I was 16 and refusing to eat because I was “too fat.”  This is about being healthy, looking good in my clothes, having a body that I can be proud of and that works for me.

I really like when people compare their bodies to machines.  If you put crap oil and diesel in a petrol car…you’re going to get crap out of it…you’ll get clogs, burnouts and it’ll stop working a LOT sooner than you thought it would.  People are the same way.  We were not designed to eat at MacDonald’s and pump loads of chemicals into our bodies.  It’s disgusting.  Here’s a creepy fact…we decompose slower than people who were embalmed even 50 years ago.  We pump so much crap in our bodies, we’re turning into a chemical.  Or how about when a deathly obese man gets cremated, the person who is supervising it realizes it smells like Micky D’s??? EW EW EW!

Look, cheating on a diet is one thing…it makes me feel like I really can eat whatever as long as, to me, it’s worth it but living a life of someone who can’t do basic functions, who can’t enjoy simple things because of weight…better yet, who can’t play and run and have LOTS of energy because they are just too fat…that’s not going to be me.

***I don’t mean to insult anyone who is obese… I’m no thin person…I also understand that there are heavier people who are MUCH healthier than thinner people.  I’m drawing a line between bigger (which to me is bigger but still healthy, still active and able to enjoy their life to the extremes) and fat (which is just unhealthy in all aspects).

You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?
Dana for sure…she’s with me on all my drunk adventures, probably Justin because I don’t drink without him and he has a car…and whoever else comes along!

You’ve locked yourself outside and no one will be home for a few hours you?
Break in through a window of course

Have you ever kicked a wall, door, etc.?
Oh yes

What kind of top are you wearing?
A black, Old Navy t-shirt that has a grey heart on it

What are you excited for?
School in the Fall (year two, baby) and the Winter Formal because my dress is HAWT!

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
One of my best friends is a guy

Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
I had a picnic lunch with Justin but as far as restaurants go, mom or Vi

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
I believe that relationships CAN be worth it IF both people actually commit to it

Do you want your tongue pierced?
Not really…I love my teeth unchipped and honestly, I get infections WAY to easily.

Are you listening to music right now?
No

Are you wearing makeup?
Not at the moment

Do you tend to waste all your money?
Not really…I actually learned to save money (finally)

Your parents split; would you want to live with your mom or dad?
My mommy…I think Dad and I would wind up killing one another

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you?
Of course…I’m kind of a brat and I do what I want so I’ve been called a couple names in the caf :p  Funny thing is, I am more than willing to be friendly to most anyone.

Did you have a good birthday this year?
Yes…it was uneventful and there was chocolate cake.

Were you happy when you woke up this morning? -NO! It was 6:15am…I was very UNHAPPY!

Does anyone like you at the moment?
Probably a couple people…I tend to be irresistible (okay, that’s not entirely true) or something

What would you say if your best friend told you they were in love with your brother?
well…he’s got a g/f so I’d say screw off?

Would you ever work as a stripper if it were the only available job for you?
Umm…maybe.  I mean, if it wasn’t full nudity and the money was good and all my options were exhausted.  I think if the situation depended on it, I would but hopefully I never have to make that choice.

Two days from now this time, where will you be?
Probably sitting on the couch chilling…I have the day off so WOOT WOOT!

How many people do you 100% trust?
my mom, Dana and Jess.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
Not at all…he’s a sweetie most of the time and a really great guy.
What are you doing tomorrow?
The plan is sleep, exercise, chill, relax, and do slim to none :) chances are that’s not going to happen…

Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
Guilty

What did you last drink?
Cranberry Juice

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants?
I’m in shorts

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a C?
A couple…like three…maybe four…

When you take a drink of something, do you hold your pinky up?
No

Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
With Justin…no idea where

What would you be doing after 20 shots?
LOL! I’d be passed out on the floor unless it was weak shots…then I would be on the bar/stage dancing like an IDIOT having the best time of my life

Ever jumped over a fence?
Oh my yes

Who were you last on the phone with?
Justin

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple of months?
I really think I will be :)

Do you cry easily?
When I’m on painkillers, yes…in a normal, healthy day, not really.

Did anything brighten up your day today?
Yes…It was a busy day at the bakery, I made mini-cheesecakes, and I got to hear Justin play the guitar (he’s doing really well)

If your boyfriend or girlfriend smoked pot, would you care?
I probably wouldn’t care if it was an “at a party” thing but if it was a every weekend thing, yeah I’d care.  I’d also care if it was a serious relationship vs just a bf.

Look to the right, what do you see?
wall

Where were you at 2 this morning?
In bed, sleeping :)

Would you rather go to California or leave the country?
Well, if I went to Cali then I would be outta the country…But it would not be my first choice

Would you rather choose truth or dare while playing “truth or dare”?
Probably truth but it depends on how much I’ve drank…

Are you legal to drink?
Yes, yes I am

Has anyone called you babe/baby lately?
I don’t think so…usually it’s hun or Sammi…

Do you like to hold or be held?
both :) I like being cuddled but I tend to cuddle into people who cuddle me

When is the last time you went to a church service?
A couple weeks ago

What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
Oh, I like that song…yay!
Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something they did?                                         Not a chance.  If someone does that, they get on my nerves very quickly and I don’t put up with it.
Have you ever been caught skipping class?
Of course…but that was ages ago

Whose your last missed call?
Greg Doucette’s office

To who did you last give the finger to?
haha…well…Im not sure but it must have been warrented

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
I wish

What does your last text say?
haha…that is SO not going on the internet (otherwise, you would all think I’m boring)

Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?
I’d deck him and her…seriously, I would wipe his butt with his own face and she would wind up being a bulimic for the rest of her life because her arm would be perma-shoved down her throat….then I’d tell my friends…and all heck would break loose!

Where did you last sleep other than your own bed?
The Holiday Inn Express a couple weeks ago after I got out of the hospital

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name starts with a P?
haha…Two, I think

Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Justin, I think

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
Next time I see him

What was your last phone conversation about?
Guitar, how my day went, VBS

Favorite number?
13

Did you deny or accept your last friend request?
Denied…didn’t know them

Was the last person you hugged a male or female?
Male

Do you wish you had an older, protective brother?
Sometimes but mostly no…I can imagine there would be some b/f’s broken noses as a teenager….and when I left my hubby.

What happened last night?
well, I did absolutely nothing except watch Big Brother

Do you know anyone named Joshua?
Yeah…I know a couple

How has September been for you?
September is always amazing! School starts!

What were you doing right before you logged into facebook?
I ate mini strawberry cheesecake with maple glaze

What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
Uhh, I don’t like children, don’t want to be pregnant and it would basically ruin my life…so that’s bad!

Who is your favorite person to talk to when you’re down?
Violet, Jess, Mom or Justin
One night stand or relationship?
Relationship…

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
I could but I wouldn’t.

Is it more common for you to follow your heart or your mind?
I follow my heart but I do it very critically

Do you and your best friend look alike?
Not at all!

Do you think age matters in relationships?
Yes.  Age is relative with maturity, where a person is in their life, their experiences etc.  One person will have an unequal footing in the relationship, however sometimes it works.

What are you thinking about right now?
Chef Ramsey is SO hot

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? If so, how long have you been together?
I am currently in a mess.  I love him, he loves me but we are in a long-distance friendship, currently separated from a 4 year marriage and just learning about each other all over again

Do you know how to play Chinese checkers?
I probably could pick it up really quickly again

What color shirt did your English teacher have on today?
Not in school right now

Has anyone ever disliked you because of your religious beliefs?
No…can’t say they have

If you have a cat, where does it usually sleep?
Ezzy sleeps in the bathroom behind the toilet

Pick one hair color to have for the rest of your life.
Dark brown

I bet your lazying around in pj pants, am I right?
Not a chance

Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Yes I do

Burger King or Wendy’s?
BK all the way!

What time is it?
9:47pm

How many pills did you take today?
1 antibiotic

What was the last item you bought?
diet pepsi, hairpins and muffin liners

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
Nope

Apple juice or Hollister gift card?
Hollister

What is/was your school mascot?
A shark!

What did you last cry over?
when I was sick and I cried over everything and was really grumpy…I hate being sick and I was pumped full of painkillers that make me emotional.

What is your next day off and how are you going to spend it?                                       Tomorrow!!! I’m gunna relax

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